Hello kids! Long time no see, eh? Doc here, writing to give you hope and to ease your worries.
I know what you are thinking, “Who does this nerd think he is?”
I know who I am (just peeked at my IMDB credits, you know, to be sure) and I am here to tell you, if you don’t create and you are a creative person, life will start to suck.
Let me give you an example, a look behind the curtain so to speak.
Here is how you fade out, and how you can break the rut that we all get into from time to time. It’s not easy, because life is hell and everything is on fire, but you can do it!
It all starts with questions.
What if they laugh at me? What if I fail? What if that cute girl/guy doesn’t want to interface with me?
The words of the questions vary, but they all have the common denominator of fear. Then, after you tell yourself these types of things long enough, they cease to be questions and become statements.
They will laugh at me. I will fail. I can’t get laid.
I am here to tell you, don’t listen to that voice. I can hear you guys already, “Easier said than done”.
That attitude will get you nowhere, because THAT IS STILL THAT VOICE. That voice comes from within, but most commonly it comes from people that want to see you fail. And you will fail, the longer you listen to that negative bullshit.
How do I know? I had some tragic events happen to me in the past two years and although it wasn’t one thing, it was a cumulative effect that had me so low I just didn’t want to do anything. And I mean anything.
I used to have various random moments of fear, like the character I played in cinemaslice’s Darkling. I didn’t think I could pull that off, in fact I was scared to death.
I played a Vietnam vet that has a meltdown that results in suicide. I thought I was over my head, but I didn’t listen to the doubts and fears. I said to myself, “Screw it. If it doesn’t work it will get cut.”
I was right; the scene plays out and is very realistic. I am glad it did and I am proud of that performance.
What I am saying is this: If you do nothing you get nothing.
I am just now coming out of my funk and it happens to all of us at one time or another. Perseverance is the word of the day. Put your head down and just crank it out. Whatever “it” is. More people are pulling for you than you think.